October is here, and that means pumpkin decor, the leaves changing colors, and sweater weather (maybe not so much if you’re from Texas though)! Also, as the temperatures start to cool down, you may start to wonder about a cuddle buddy now and then.
To start off, here’s a little bit of my dating backstory. Up until my sophomore year of college, I had never dated a single person. My first relationship, however, was a serious, year-long one with a guy that I met through a mutual friend. While it had its ups here and there, it was very rocky (which I can maybe talk about in another post later on). Eventually, things ended, and not to be dramatic, but the entire spiel left me somewhat broken and extremely wary about love.
I’m a senior now, and for the first time in 1-2 years, I’m finally feeling ready to really put myself out there again. Now, everyone who knows me knows that I am a very RATIONAL person when it comes to romance, and trust me – I’d love to be a hopeless romantic if I could. On top of that, I’m extremely picky and kind of conservative when it comes to physical touch. It also doesn’t help that I tend to only fall for people that I’m already friends with, which puts me at a high risk of being friend-zoned –> example: this one friend of mine that rejected me last semester LOL. #justbeingreal.
Anyway, I’ve never gone through a phase where I just try dating guys to get a better sense of what I do/don’t like, so lately, I’ve been more open towards that idea. I’m not exactly sure if a committed relationship is what I’m looking for right now, but if it’s possible, I wouldn’t oppose to having one.
I can’t give out too many details, but I’ve met someone recently that made me super excited to get to know him better, and it’s seriously so strange to me considering how stoic I usually am. Like for the first time in my life, I can confidently describe what I feel as “chemistry.” At the moment, I barely know him, and yet, I found/find it so easy to talk to him and feel so comfortable already, which kind of freaks me out but also feels nice. Maybe it’ll turn into something or maybe it won’t – I’m just excited about…something?? So fingers crossed!
Bisous à tous! ♡